Winds of Change

In life, there are things that you are going to do that will bring you conflicting feelings. I never really had this feeling until last week.

Rewind to two weeks ago, I had an interview for a higher position in a different store of my company. It is a position that I have always wanted to hold, I get to meet new people, organize things, and most of all learn something new. I interviewed well and I waited for my phone call too see if I got the job or not.

Fast forward to last week-I was working when I received the phone call that I got the job! I was filled with all sorts of feelings, but the one that showed on my face was happiness. I was thrilled. I was excited. I was happy. I could almost cry that’s how excited I was.

And then it started to sink in, “Toto, were not in Kansas anymore.” This is the real deal. I’m not apart of this store anymore, when I leave, my co workers don’t come with me. They stay at their store, and they live their lives and I go to my new store and I live my life. That thought in itself made me want to crawl in a hole and die.

My co workers are the goofiest, funniest, care free group of individuals I have ever met in my entire life. They have legit seen me at my worst, and at my best. They have watched me grow up from a teenager to a young adult and I have been mothered by a few along the way. I guess the thing that bothered me was that I would never forget this group of people, and I didn’t want them to forget me either. And I know how life works, you get busy, you forget to call or text, or you don’t do it as much as you should and you lose contact. I have lost contact with enough people in my life, I don’t need to lose more! But I can only speak from my end, not from theirs.

But I have made myself a vow, I will never forget where I came from. I will remember who my friends are. I’m going to remember the people who got me to where I am and all the hardwork that I put in to get to where I am today. Those are the friends that I dare not lose contact with. They are the friends and the people that will keep me grounded when my heads in the clouds.

As much as I hate leaving everything and everyone that I know, I know that I am leaving to make myself better, I going to be a new and improved Christal. I am going to make myself the person that I want to be. And I know that my old co workers will be behind me every step of the way to cheer me on. BUT, I’m going to make new friends and they will I’m sure be as fun as my old ones. It will just take time like it did at my store. All I need to worry about is being the Christal I need to be.

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Can You Hear Me Now?

I think it is funny when people say that they can’t live without their cellphone, but the thing is, is that I can’t live without mine either.

My iPhone 5 is an accessory that I have with me at all times, I never leave home without it. It is my means of communication, entertainment, social media outlet, and my note recorder. When I forget the thing I feel like I went out in public with no pants on.

But its true, people are relying more and more on technology in their life. Peoples phones hold just about everything in their life, phone numbers, important information, store cards, games, camera, just about everything that girls carry around in their purses on a daily basis. The sad thing is, that with all of this nonsense that we could live without thirty years ago, we find ourselves struggling through life without it on a daily basis. Why do I feel like I’m missing something when I don’t bring my cell phone? Because I rely on it, just like you rely on pants to cover your tush when you’re out in public.

The more that we rely on these things, I feel that people are forgetting that there are REAL people in the world that you can ACTUALLY talk to face to face. Everything is like “Oh, I’ll text you!” or “I’ll call you!” or “Facebook me!”. What did people do in the early 90’s when there was no such thing a cell phone, what did people do then? You called on a house phone. Which most likely had a cord on it, which you could barely take to the next room with you or like even ten feet. There was no texting your friends when you got to their house to say “I’m here” or hiding behind your messages because it is something that you could never say to their face because it is just too nasty and mean.

For as much as the cell phone has proven time and time again on how dependable and important they are to have with you when you are out, it really has ruined human to human communication. We always feel the need to text someone or to call them if you haven’t seen or heard from them in awhile. When we finally see that person, we spend the entire time on our phones checking facebook, instagram, and twitter about the new news in our other “friends” lives that has NO real importance to us. I say “friends” because how many people that you are friends with on your social media site are really your friends? Fifty maybe? Out of those fifty you probably on see like fifteen of them on a daily or weekly basis, if that. The rest are people that you have met at a bar,  a party,  worked with, or you graduated with, so you really aren’t friends with these people. Regardless, these people who mean just about nothing to you or the well being of your life are holding your attention away from your real friends. It happens to me all of the time, my friends and I will go out to the bar to catch up and talk about life and we sit there on our phones the entire time, just in silence. I’m not out at the bar with these people that are on my phone, why do I care about them? But really, what did people do without Facebook? I know what I did before facebook…myspace. Even before then, what did people do when they didn’t have a website to put all of their boo-hoo’s and engagement pictures on? Where did people rant and rave about stupid crap that they saw on the internet, or take nameless jabs at their ex they are still friends with so they know that they are pissed off? Oh what is that you say? They didn’t?! How did they survive?! What did they do?! They talked to people about their problems?! That’s crazy! I would never think to do that!

I remember my first cell phone, it was an LG flip phone, it had no camera, it dialed out and accepted calls in. That was about it. There was nothing special about the thing at all, other than the fact that it rang when someone called it. That was in 2004. Now in 2014, we have cell phones that have 44 megapixel cameras that don’t have flash because the camera doesn’t need it. With that came the front facing camera, designed to facetime or skype people from your phone, like a real life Jetsons video call.  That’s not all it has come out to be used for either, front facing cameras are now awesome for these pictures that you take of yourself called “selfies”. I am not gonna act like I don’t take selfies, because I do. I will admit it, but my selfie taking is under control much more than other people’s. I seriously am so sick of #selfiesunday #ootd and #transformationtuesday. I could give two (earmuffs) flying fucks about what you’re wearing today, or how much the same you looked from the picture that you took yesterday. Unless you miraculously dropped 100lbs overnight, changed your hair color, or got a nose job, I don’t really feel there is a need to post a selfie every day of your life. It is redonkulous. BUT THAT’S NOT ALL! There is now snapchat, which in my opinion, was made by a man so women could send them pictures of their boobs without them worrying about finding their tits on the internet. Why do we need that? Why do I need to check my phone to see if I got snapchats?

We have taken something so basic as the cell phone, that fifteen years ago was as basic as just making in and out phone calls that was the size of a brick and had an antenna that you could go fishing with to phones that don’t even need you to touch them to open them, operate on voice command and will google search everything your little heart desires with a hold of a button. The cell phone went from something that people used in case of an emergency to something that people, including myself, can not live without. I just hope that this world doesn’t get to the point where I am wasting my mobile to mobile minutes talking to someone who is sitting right next to me.

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