In life, there are things that you are going to do that will bring you conflicting feelings. I never really had this feeling until last week.
Rewind to two weeks ago, I had an interview for a higher position in a different store of my company. It is a position that I have always wanted to hold, I get to meet new people, organize things, and most of all learn something new. I interviewed well and I waited for my phone call too see if I got the job or not.
Fast forward to last week-I was working when I received the phone call that I got the job! I was filled with all sorts of feelings, but the one that showed on my face was happiness. I was thrilled. I was excited. I was happy. I could almost cry that’s how excited I was.
And then it started to sink in, “Toto, were not in Kansas anymore.” This is the real deal. I’m not apart of this store anymore, when I leave, my co workers don’t come with me. They stay at their store, and they live their lives and I go to my new store and I live my life. That thought in itself made me want to crawl in a hole and die.
My co workers are the goofiest, funniest, care free group of individuals I have ever met in my entire life. They have legit seen me at my worst, and at my best. They have watched me grow up from a teenager to a young adult and I have been mothered by a few along the way. I guess the thing that bothered me was that I would never forget this group of people, and I didn’t want them to forget me either. And I know how life works, you get busy, you forget to call or text, or you don’t do it as much as you should and you lose contact. I have lost contact with enough people in my life, I don’t need to lose more! But I can only speak from my end, not from theirs.
But I have made myself a vow, I will never forget where I came from. I will remember who my friends are. I’m going to remember the people who got me to where I am and all the hardwork that I put in to get to where I am today. Those are the friends that I dare not lose contact with. They are the friends and the people that will keep me grounded when my heads in the clouds.
As much as I hate leaving everything and everyone that I know, I know that I am leaving to make myself better, I going to be a new and improved Christal. I am going to make myself the person that I want to be. And I know that my old co workers will be behind me every step of the way to cheer me on. BUT, I’m going to make new friends and they will I’m sure be as fun as my old ones. It will just take time like it did at my store. All I need to worry about is being the Christal I need to be.